I don’t have too much to update about anymore these days. Basically my life consists of school, working 5 days a week, and my 2 year old child.
Very consist and organized I would say.

Though we did make it to the St. Patty’s day parade today and he loved it. Then we went to my friends family’s cookout and he got to play with a bunch of girls.

This daylights savings time is really messin’ with him and I though. We slept till 10 AM, got up cleaned, ate, and then went to the parade and now it’s 5 PM and he has no nap. Woohoo, early night tonight?

Hoping so.

Tootles lovers.

So I’m in the process of finding an apartment for Rylan and I. Not that I’m having problems at home, but I just want that freedom. I miss it.

So I re-did my wishlists.

Amazon Apartment Wishlist & UO Apartment Wishlist

But really, honestly, I just wish for those things. Most of the things I’m looking at for my own place are on my shopping list at Target Apartment + Wishes.

But, I love egift cards even more.
fischbait@gmail.com

I just unfortunately don’t have shit to move out on… not even a toddler bed. Boo.

Just sayin’, if you feel you wanna help me out and send me an e-gift card or purchase something, email me and we will set something up in exchange.

Anyways, I have been keeping busy with work and school and my baby boy. Nothing to interesting besides the fact that I got a Sony Vaio and it’s pretty much amazing.

Hmmm, let’s see. Where to begin since I have been a slacker !

I’ll start with my weekend.
This past weekend was my best friend’s little sisters 21st birthday. We got a limo. We went out of town and bar hopped.
It was just a few friends, yeah, 14 of us. We all pretty much were set in couples, it was fun. It was my best friend Jen and her boyfriend. Chrissy (the birthday girl) and her man. Amber and her man. Alicia and Lindsay, Alyssa and Adam, and myself and Glen. We went out of town and got sloshed, which was a good time in my eyes. Picture post soon.

Yes, I am starting to see someone new. Yikes.
Never thought I would be with someone new. Let alone someone that makes me happy and someone that doesn’t abuse me. Very different atmosphere and it’s amazing.
But don’t get me wrong, we are just “seeing” each other because I am not looking to jump into anything right at this very moment.

Hmm, as for whatshisname, haven’t seen or heard anything from him. Which is a good thing also. Have heard some stories, but as for whatshisname, I’m pretty sure he has left town.

On another note, favorite and not-so favorite beauty products is done, just for some final tweeks and I’ll have it up and running so you all can take a gander at what I like from a stylist’s perspective.

As for now, I’m off to bed, toodle-loo loves. xoxo.

I know I haven’t updated in over a month damn near. I’m sorry…

I don’t mean to neglect my site.
But I’m almost done with my favorite products/not so favorites post.
That will be next after I make a reasonable post, reply to comments and visit my favorites!
Toodles.

These past few weeks have been horrible for me, and I have never been that depressed in my life. But that all changed very shortly…

With everything that was going on with Tony, I didn’t eat for about 2 1/2 weeks, except with a here and there snack. I was so depressed over him, and for what reason? I got to thinking about the situation, and I am so glad he is out of my life now.

He is 33 years old, with just a high-school education.  No experience but tattooing, and can’t even get a job in a factory. He has 2 kids that he doesn’t even take care of, and he has absolutely nothing to offer me.

Then to top it off, I had court on Thursday with my baby daddy’s parents, because they have been trying to get custody of them. It was at 10 A.M., and my lawyer and I arrived at 9:45 A.M.  By 10 A.M., they still weren’t there…

As usual they are late, and finally they called and said they were going to be late. While they were late, my lawyer asked me what happened to my hand, and I told him the story. He told me to drop my tickets off and he will plead not guilty for me because they broke their own damn window.  So that’s a good thing! Thank god.

Then, to top it off, I didn’t realize I had one of the best lawyers in my county. He got me exactly what I wanted, and wouldn’t budge for them. So they had to take my offer of one weekend a month, and they have to provide all transportation because I am no longer receiving child support because my baby daddy is serving 4 1/2 years in prison.

This is where my low to high comes in.

I won in court, my lawyer is going to get me out of my tickets, and then what I heard about Tony, made my day more than anything.

I went to the bar with my best friend to have 1 beer. We walk in and started chatting to a friend of ours. She said to me “Your ex-boyfriend is getting himself in a lot of trouble.”, and I was like “Oh yeah?” She then continued saying this; “Yeah, his new girlfriend is making him a lot of enemies for him and herself. He is really bad into crack/cocaine again and it’s all because of his new girlfriend. And to top it off, he just showed up at Mike’s house to hang out and ended up stealing money from them.” “Then his girlfriend called Caroline a sasqwatch, and Caroline is going to beat the shit out of that girl. Oh and not to mention that Mike hacked into his new girlfriends phone and changed her voicemail to “I’m a trashy whore that steals money and does a bunch of cocaine with Tony. Everyone hates me because I’m a whore.” then he changed her pin so she can’t change it back.”
Not to mention what I have done to ruin his life, but I won’t talk about that on my journal. Ahh, he’s in deep shit, and I love to know that he has went downhill since me, and became a crack head with his new girlfriend. Ahahahaha. Life is good, thanks 2010!

This is how I rung in my new years. Can’t type a huge post with my finger and hand all in this stupid splint, but here’s what happened.

Decided to have some courage and go talk to Tony. Headed to his house, he came outside we started arguing because all of a sudden he didn’t want to talk, and then his so called new girlfriend comes out and calls my son a nigger. Yes, my son a nigger.

So with anger I went to punch her lights out but they slammed the door in my face and my hand went through the window, I unlocked that door and went after her, till Tony punched my head in the next window, broke that one, choked me again, punched my ribs and face and called the cops.

I got 900 dollars worth of tickets, him and her nothing. Even with her hate crime against my child. He didn’t battery, I did, even though I didn’t hit anyone, but he hit me. Ahhh, what a lovely new year.

Can you believe that it’s been a decade in the 2000’s already?
I honestly feel stuck in the 90’s. Whew.

Anyways, happy new year everyone! Glad we all made it safely.

My new year’s was alright. I only stayed out till 4 A.M. even though the bars here (and maybe everywhere?) were open till 6 A.M. By 2 A.M. I was faded. I didn’t even drink anymore past that point.

So a short recap on my new years eve?

My girls and I met up and they all wanted to go to another town to do some bar hopping before we headed out to our “main” bar. I kept telling them, “I don’t want to go to Danny Boy’s”, I repeated that several times, but they still insisted that we went. I had a really bad feeling about it.

So we get to Danny Boy’s and as soon as we walk in, guess who I see right off the bat to start my night off? Tony. I was so pissed. When we all finally got in the door, he just sat there and starred at me. So about after 3 minutes of him starring at me, I flipped him off and back out of his view, told my girls he was there, so we hurried up and tried to finish our newly ordered drinks.

At that moment, Tony’s buddy comes up to me and was like

Hey honey, how you doing? I came over here to let you know that you better not start any shit.

I then was f**king irate. Really? He had someone come talk to me beacuse I gave him the bird? Wow, immature. I replied with:

How f**king immature is that Brian? You don’t need to come over here and tell me nothing, tell him to stop starring them. This is immature, and next time you want to tell me what to do, I’ll get all you crackheads thrown out.

Funny thing, is my friends family owns that bar, and he has also beat her up. Dumbasses.

By that time we chugged our drinks and left. My night from then got better. We went to another bar and I got bomb-barded by old high school friends. Then after a beer there, we left and finally made it to our bar. Then the party started and I am queen of getting free drinks, and not to mention one of our best friends is the bartender so I got trashed fairly quickly.

I sobered up and left 2 hours after I was done drinking, hung out with an oldie but goodie, and came home got four hours of sleep and was up for the day with my little guy!

Anyways, I have a few pictures up on flickr of my new years. And I must be concieted for a minutes and just throw out how much I love this photo of me.

Oh and shout out to Becca, she is my twin and lover. Great friends. Love you.

But I am going out tonight. So I will be getting ready fairly shortly. So everyone be safe as ringing in the new years is still going on. Loves. Toodles.

Ohhh, and feel free to ask me anything you want here via formspring.

Well, well, well… new years is right around the corner.
Literally, we are almost through this decade already and does anyone remember when 2000 was coming into the new year and everyone was freaking out.. gathering non-perishable items and flashlights, and thinking the world was going to end?

Yeah, glad we could get past that good ol’ US of A

Anyways, I just wanted to make a little update and tell everyone happy new years and to please be safe! I feel like there have been many deaths this year that could’ve been avoided, and I just want everyone to please be responsible.

As for me? Tomorrow I have a ton of hair to do, and I bought myself a new dress (super vintage-y) that I plan on sporting if I decide to go anywhere. I’m also giving myself a new look. Since I do everyone elses hair, I figured I’d do mine. I’m going back to blonde, and giving myself light brown mocha low-lights, with probably blue / pink bangs as usual. Plus I’m growing my hair back out with I’m rather excited for.

I will make sure to post some pictures of myself, and so forth when I decided to download Adobe onto this mini laptop since my computer is still out of commision. (It could’ve been fixed already but I’m really in no rush to get it fixed just yet.)

Anyways, toodles my lovers. Be safe, and have a good new years!

I once wrote an entry describing why we broke up. Even after all that bullshit, I went back to him, even though I knew I should not have.

Last night made it very clear to me that I’m the biggest idiot.

Everything has been going very good for us, since that entry. We have been getting along better than ever, and it’s Christmas so I honestly thought that everything was going to get even better…
God how that can change in a blink of an eye.

I worked Saturday night, until 8 PM, then when I got back to town it was about 9 PM, and I called my buddy Cody to hang out for a few. We were kicking it for about 45 minutes, and then we decided to go out to have a few drinks. (I worked the next morning so I wasn’t out to get faded.) Tony, Cody, and I decided we would hit up Johnny’s…a local popular bar.

Tony and I get there, and we get our drinks, and everything is going good. I’m chatting to some people I haven’t seen in a while. Just a good calm night. Well there were tons of people showing up that I haven’t seen in a while and was talking to all of them. Then my girl Carrie shows up and I can’t even express how much that girl means to me.

Me and her are giggling at a table laughing, so on, so forth, and Tony and Cody are chatting. In that time being, Tony & Carrie mention how they are totally down to fight anyone tonight. Me, ugh, not so much.

Anyways, the night is going smooth, 12:30 AM is rolling around the corner and I wanted to leave because I was feeling good but yet I was so hungry because I haven’t ate all day. So Tony and I leave for McDonald’s.

As we are driving there, he puts in one of his CD’s, and it’s god awful, barfing angrily metal rock, and dedicates this song to me. Basically all I caught in the song was “you are a wall, you make no f**king sense”. I was not happy. At all. How can you dedicate a song like that to someone you supposidly love more than life?

We get our food, and go back to his place. We are eating, and as we are eating I plug my phone in because it’s on the verge of dying and I needed my battery life for tomorrow at work.

Somewhere inbetween eating, and me grabbing for my phone, he lost his f**king mind and started to choke the shit out of me, to the point where I almost puked. I threw the rest of my food on his bedroom floor and he got on top of me and restled with me, choking me, punching my, pulling my hair, etc. I threw my drink, and he grabbed my blackberry and threatened to break it. So I grabbed his non-working phone and chucked it at the door.

Then I had enough, I was trying to gather my things, and get out of there, but since I was trying to do that, he grabbed my glasses and broke them so I couldn’t see. (Yeah, my 300 dollar pair of new glasses.) He took my keys, and my phone and threw me into the door, to the floor and hten picked me up and grabbed both sides of my head and nearly punched my head threw a window about 16 times.

I fell to the floor crying, as his roommate comes out and watches this brawl go down and the only thing he says is “Keep it down or the cops might show up!”

I was in shock that another man would let a boy do this to a grown ass woman. He brought a knife out on me, and then my friend tried to stand up for me and he started beating her up.

Finally I got out of there, and he called me saying “I’m calling the cops, your getting arrested you whore!”

I am in so much pain today, I have choke marks on my neck, bruises up and down my body, a broken lip and eye, I can barely move my neck, and I have huge bruises on the inside of my arms along with losing the most hair I have ever lost in my life, with two huge bumps on my head.

A restraining order is on it’s way.

Merry Christmas Eve & Merry Christmas, Happy holidays, and pleasssse make it a safe new years!