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my girlfren sed my dictate good
i hate onions. blech.
i got my steuben dressss
anth's pimpin me and ais now.
hah. suckaz.
<3
Blow me a kiss, blow me away
Hello.
For the first time in about 3 or 4 months i feel good.
i like that.
So pretty much summer was boozefest. I got fat. We'll admit it.
So my mama and i are turning the basement into a pretty extreme work out room. I've been dealing with things, thinking alot and just taking alot of time to myself, which i feel kind of selfish for because i didnt really talk to many people, but i feel like i'm coming back into the world.
For about 2 weeks now i've been busy.
I like keeping myself busy.
For the 2 or 3 months before that i've just been so apathetic it seems, and just drifting through everything.
I completely let everything go for about a week and just hit -not exactly a rock bottom depression per-say- but whatever it was it woke me up.
Lately, i've been hanging out with people i feel i've neglected and some new people and i'm really happy. I've been reconciling with some people and it feels really good.
I'm going to become a newer, better version of me.
One i like better.
I also like alot more chill music than i used to.
I think i'm mellowing out and becoming more adult-ish?
In about a half hour i've got to go back yet again to state park to get my new car.
I'll post a picture of my baby soon. I dunno what to name it yet.
Suggestions?
I've also come to the realization that the people i talk to day in and day out..this time next year, i more than likely won't see. It's kind of a bummer of a conclusion, but it's forced me to better appreciate the relationships i have now.
I'm probably boring you with this Lj entry. But i've just been doin alot of thinking lately.
Tonight: Thanksgiving with dad's side and movie with Seemiller, then possibly some king's? i gotta call up my bitches.
Tomorrow: all day at gramma's. believe me, i'm pumpin my fists riiight now.
Fridizzle: BLACK FRIDAY! i'm camping outside Sears. Feel free to join me or visit. later that night-hopefully people over? hopefully.
Yeah. those are about as solid as my plans get.
At least until next year. Tentatively, me, mark and nate are getting a house/apartment in/near pittsburgh area cause me and mark are going to robert morris and nate works up there. That's why im camping outside of sears.
kickass 42" plasma. i'm crossing my fingers to get it for my boys and my crib. My mom and dad wont tell me what they want for christmas. it drives me mad. Bah. I've rambled enough for one entry.
later< 3
baby...
<3
Oh, Chipotle.
how i love you.
Escaping August did awesome last night.
I had a greatttt time.
Wow..i just realized how infrequently i update this.
i think i might get back into this a little more over school.
just to kinda keep up a semi-steady free writing..flow.
eh..we'll see.
I'm getting my roots redone in a few hours.
Tomorrow JCC starts, Jordan, Ian, and Nate's new jobs.
Since nearly everyone and their uncle has a job and/or in school..i might start looking for one..just to pass sometime and get some cash flow.
I've decided i want to spend at least 2-3 weeks in france/spain/italy/england. I'm gonna start saving.
I'm kinda excited for school.
I've missed seeing a few people's lovely faces everyday =)
And i won't cook out of boredom, so i'll eat less. I'm getting a fucking gut.
blech.
Well. Today Mayday is recording til about 7, i got my hairs, and some shopping to do and then we'll see what happens.
I need to see Vanilla Sky already, dammit.
Shower time.
later loves.
Jessica Simpson should not do commercials.
or act.
ever.
octavionao
you know what i love?
washing my face.
itfeelssocleancleanclean.
Blah, sorry for the outburt last night on here.
Well, this morning.
I got to thinking too much and that's not good. I just kinda came to my own ignorant conclusions on things and had this all worked out so poorly in my mind..then believed in it.
I'm all good now though.
Well, now im ridiculously tired.
But-- i'm listening to some new underoath and it kicks ass.
Tonight was pretty fun. It was Ms Jamie Perry's Birthday party =)
and we watched the fireworks in T-town from Nate's porch.
The past few weeks have been nuts.
I havent really got anything to complain about, so life's been pretty good lately.
The tonight is my first 100% completely sober night this week.
woooo! I'm gonna chill on the partying like a rockstar thing for a bit lol
ilovemyfriends.
and singing taking back sunday at 3am on my trampoline.
and my mom.
and victoria's secret semi-annual sale.
and finding a paycheck you thought you'd already cashed.
score!
Bah i need some sleep.
i think i'm gonna spend most of sunday with my mom and then monday is that Mayday/Hey Alaska/Escaping August show at hilltop. 7. Be there 8-)
tuesday and wednesday i got nothin.
the 6th is tour kickoff at wiseguys.
then we leave shortly after that.
if i'm not back on here before then, i'll see you in august sometime =)
love.
So i've pretty much come to this conclusion that i'm a worthless piece of shit.
baconbaconbacon
So my mom and dad just got back from Maryland.
They brough this plant back.
It is living in this half&half carton, still full of half&half and is not yet dead.
It looks kinda like it's growing coffe beans or rabbit poop.
It's kinda gnarly.
They also brought back 3 kinds of jelly.
I'm pretty pumped about that.
I just had some hot pepper peach on wheat cibatta.
My day is good =)
This weekend was pretty sweet.
I haven't really gotten a good nights sleep since last wednesday.
I could probably stand one. I kinda miss my bed.
"...let's have a conversation!!"
Why is LC so damn pretty?
I'm chilling watching The Hills and i just realized how pretty she is.
She reminds me of Lauren Steil, Travis from FFTL's girlfriend.
They're both gorgeous.
I have been craving spagetti for the past 3 days, and chinese since the week school let out.
I want to go out to dinner.
Actually sit down, dress up and be sweet.
Red lobster cheesey biscuts.
This is making me hungry.
I'm gonna go get more toast.
Today must be "random animals run in front on emily's car" day.
Yeap. I'm pretty sure of it.
i'm going to have some browner hair
I just realized Mrs D'anniballe still has my clay cupcake or threw it away.
sonofabitch.
Today was so wonderful.
Alllll day long, you name it --it went wrong. I get lost, i get hit, i forget something..etc.
But, by the end of the day, things cooled down.
I realized the huge dent/hole in my car is not a dent at all, just a figment of my imagination and some dirt. Score.
School is out. Since then i've been bumming around Kiel's/Michele's/Anth's/King's and home.
I was tryin to go to Anth's tonight for his pool shindig, but i am so flippin beat, i'd probably drown lol
I woke up ridiculously early today for my cousin Carrie's wedding and i've been up ever since.
The wedding was cool though.
After i got back from that, i high tailed it to pick my niggas up and we went to wheeling for the Mayday show. We ended up lost, but we ran into Emily and Steve while they were lost too, and bonded together and found this venue. Completely missed mayday, but we all still had a good time. I saw my counsin Nick there too, we actually like..talked hah, it was sweet.
My face is greasy. I'm gonna go get on that and hit the sack.
it's written all over your face
So it's 12.34 in the morning and "The Taste of Ink" came on my iPod.
I just got to thinking about two summers ago, walking aimlessly around the top deck of the navigator with Beth and Lay and all our boat friends. We knew every word. We knew every harmony. We rocked that shit. We would go to dinner all dressed up, and then afterwards, still in our frilly ass dresses, we'd take a few laps just cause it was so beautiful and smelled so wonderful and was so peaceful outside.
The weather right now feels exactly the same; humid, almost like a big warm blanket, but still cool cause of the rain.
This really makes me want to just go outside with some headphones, walk around and sing my ass off.
I just don't want to go by myself or i would right now, pajama-clad and all.
I'm too restless and nostalgic to go to bed.
elbow drops
what up mah niggaz?
So i've been sitting here listening to Benny Benassi and Shiny Toy Guns like it's my job cause i'm in one of those "i wanna dance" moods.
I need someone to come dance with me.
likerightnow.
I've realized lately how quiet i can really be.
For no good reason either, i just get into these funks where i'm ridiculously quiet.
Eff on that.
But i'm really energetic right now and feel like dancing and talking and i just wanna be doing something.
So what do i do..update the good ol' LJ.
Well, that and i'm looking at stuff online that i want.
I think i might actually have a shot at getting some of this too if i dont go on vacation.
If everything works out sweet, i should be going on tour for july.
I found this van for like 600-800 bucks. I'm so excited.
If that happens then, i think my mom n dad are going without me. So no crazy floridian shopping trips this year. I'm alright with that though :) They need some time and i'm amped about everything.
I got my two exams tomorrow and i am done with school.
Wooooo.
Trig and Lit. It should be pretty easy.
I talked to shuster today about scholars and not being in it. My mom needs to write a letter and i'm dizzone. I'll have statistics and greek mythology next year during 4th period. So anyone else taking those..sign up for it then please =)
Well, i'm gonna go listen to some more techno and sew a bit. Later< 3
We brake too many chairs.
Welp, i just got back from watching Mayday practice. Their new song is awesome.
Tonight i'm not too sure what's going on yet. I'm headin to the mall in a lil bit here and waiting for some calls about after that.
Tomorrow is KennyWood day for choir.
Then..hopefully some party of somesort.
Then sunday. I have no clue.
Today Beth and i have been going around singing the White Tee song to anyone in a white tee.
We are sweet. =)
Since ..sunday, what's been happenin?
Monday was that bonfire at Kenda's, Tuesday we practiced for our metcalf monologue. Wednesday was the choir and drama banquet. Thursday we hung out at Kiel's and then went to Kings. Today...half a day of school and since that i've been at Michele's.
Now i'm eating sourdough bread shaped like a basketball. It's pretty neato.
School is officially OVER. But -- i still have exams next week on tuesday and wednesday, only for 3 hours each day though, so it's not so bad.
I'm gonna head out now. Later<3
"You won't haymaker him!"
So Lj..it's been a long time.
Life's been fairly sweet lately.
Right now, i'm watching Billy Madison and my mom is baking banana chocolate chip bread.
It's 7.30 and i'm just now begining to finally wake-up wake-up.
Last night was Michele's going away party at her and Sam's house.
There were so many people there it was crazy. It was a pretty good time.
Today i worked at the honda in Brilliant. I just realized that the past 4 times i've gone into work, i've either been hung over or partially drunk. It really makes the time fly by alot quicker.
I think i'm going to get another job, too.
Hopefully at DQ with Anth or at Giannamore's with Ryan. I was talking to him about that last night..god knows if i work there though, i'd eat non-stop. I mean..it's impossible to pass up giannamores! I can't actually work-work til like mid-June.
I havent the slightest idea what's up for vacation this year.
I thiiiiiink we're just gonna kick it in ft lauderdale for like a week.
I want to bring someone but i dunno if i can yet.
School is almost out.
We have 4 and a half days this week, and then i found out i have to come in for 3 finals.
Summer should be interesting.
I am going to miss the Mayday crew so bad though while they're on tour.
And all the seniors going away to college. =(
I've been making pretty much everyone i know promise me they'll live in pittsburgh with me and work somewhere in my hospital. Yeah.
I came to a realization the other day that i'm actually going to be an adult.
I know i'm going to JCC for a year or so, then to pitt if i get accepted into their nursing school. I'll probably commute there til i get an actual job-job. Then hopefully i'll get a place with some gals.
I officially like someone.
I've been listening to alot of either really slow melodic music or hard mind-erasing music lately.
And i've actually been in my room, instead of just random rooms in the house.
Anthony and i ate half a freakin cake yesteray.
My stomache is killin' right about now haha
I hate chocolate cake too. It reminds me of dirt. But i ate it?
....i just keep thinking back to last night.
and the weekend before
and the weekend before
etc.
I truly have amazing people in my life.
I think next weekend i'm going camping with Beffernator. I just have to make sure i don't work yet. I'm extremely strapped for cash right now and a month behind on paying my dad for my car insurance so i pretty much have to take anything that comes my way.
I NEED A REAL PEOPLE JOB.
I need to call Legal about extensions, too.
I'm pretty sure if it's not over 200 i'm gonna get some sweet black/blonde/brunette chunky pieces. I'm so excited.
Man, everybody in this movie is kissing right now.
lalala i'm getting ramble-y.
I think i might actually try to update this more often.
Loooooo
I don't know why but today has been just one of those days that make life worth living.
Maybe it's the sun
Maybe it's the fresh air
Today i just realized how lucky i am to have such great people in my life.
Alright. i'm on Steve's myspace, and deathtember is playing, so sappy update over. more later.
love!
i've got pneumonia
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY!!
you don't need a reason to get out on the dance floor
I am so tired of being sick.
Sunday afternoon i wasn't feeling too great, but figured eh..whatever, it'll just go away in a bit. Went to Reese's for the Superbowl with Cody and Joe and Kyre and Kiera, had a blast. Got home, puked my guts up and monday i didn't go to school thinking i maybe ate something bad, then i got paranoid cause Steve is always saying how crappy DiCarlo's is, and we had it at Reese's, and i liked it, so i ate it. Monday was alright, i slept through most of it and then Beth and Joe came over for a bit. That night i puked a bit more and headed to bed. Woke up Tuesday, had a temperature of 102.9 and started spazzing out and going into cesure-like tantrums. Got an appointment with Dr Nassar, found out i have like 4 viruses all of which have to clear up one by one in order for the next virus to get better, so this should be interesting. Got home, slept until this morning. Woke up, fell immediately back to sleep. Had a really weird dream that all i wanted to do was be a Sororiety Girl with a naughty tape and my campus housing was out in the country and for some reason i kept trying to call Zac Felton. Woke up to a Sexy College Co-Eds ad and went back to sleep til afternoon. Joe came over for a bit, i talked to Anth and Beth and Reese on the phone for a while.
I watched all of West-Side Story today.
God knows why.
I cannot seem to ever get into that movie.
I really hope i can go back to school tomorrow.
I miss people.
I hate doing make-up work.
BUT my dad is really concerned cause he thinks whatever i caught is from school, and if i go back and turn out even sicker, i'll be in a worse situation because this Saturday i'm taking my ACT's so i wanna be on the ball for that.
Then after that my mom and i are having bonding time and shopping.
Then after that is the sexy party.
Next weekend, the 17th is the MayDay AfterMath show at Rooney's...you should all come =)
The 18th is Anthony's B-dizzle partizzle.
Then the 25th is Olive Garden tyme. Ya herd?
BLAH.
I'm just gonna go back to complete thoughtlessness, reading my girly magazines and listening to bright eyes.
G'night all<3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE!!!
chew it over with twix
Tonight i figured i'd try something new. So i just showered and washed my hair and tomorrow morning i'm gonna wake up, clean up a bit, and go to school. Now watch, i'll probably feel smelly and gross tomorrow morning and still shower, but-- i figure this way i can sleep in. Yay for sleeping in. And Oh! Grahm O's. I'm pretty sure that's one of my new favorite cereals. I dont suggest eating it by itself though, it's sweet like what.
Anywho. I dont really remember what all has happened since that last show. Try to recap a bit -- Thrift shopping, Southside trips, i havent been sick, exams are over, second term means easier chemistry class, but harder lit, some mall trips, i've made 4 more shirts, painted my nails, and completed my button glueing to my computer, i finally saw Wedding Crashers, and i love it, actually i just came back from Sam's house and we watched it again there.
Blah, enough recapness.
Brokeback Mountain
Crapstaches!
One of these upcoming weekends, probably during the Sweetheart dance since no one's going to that, a few people are going to dress fancy and go eat somewhere nice. I cannot wait.
I hope this Saturday my mom and i can go thirft shopping in southside and spend some time together. i havent gotten to see her much lately. I think she's going to work full-time in pittsburgh from here on out.
Ok. I am gonna go catch me some Daily Show and get to bed.
G'night
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"I think i left my thong in your wife's bed, the one with shit stains"
Bahhhhhh.
I hate being sick. My lips and nose get all chappy.
Plus, this means i'm not allowed to go anywhere. Boo.
On the brightside, i got alot of visitors, so that was sweet.
__Since i updated.
Well, i'll just start with this weekend.
Friday we had half a day of school.
The rest of the day, i don't remember the sequence of things, but i remember going to the mall, and then going to King's and then to Sam/Michele's house.
Saturday was sweet.
Mayday Aftermath show at Rooney's and then to Michele/Sam's house with like a bajillion people.
Kiels Hair!
.
.
Coffee is love
Got back a few minutes late. Sort of a long story, really. Ended up grounded for the last two days of the 3.5-day weekend.
Again, i had visitors, so it was cool.
Tuesday was school and then AC Choir sectionals.
Then some mallxcore-age with Joe and Rob.
Wednesday.
i honestly do not remember.
Thursday was school and then Joe, Reese, Vanessa, Brian, Jack, and Emily3 stopped over for a bit and we headed out to Michele/Sam's house to meet up with Tom and Jordan and Emily2 and eventually Michele.
Friday.
Today.
It was sorta bunk til people came over. That made my day awesome.
Saturday was sweet.
Gabes/GoodWill/Mall/Giannamore's/Mall/Mayday Aftermath practice at Michele&Sam's/Kings.
Oh shit yeah.
Today was kinda pointless.
I've been cut off from society in order to study for my exams.
On a good note, after tomorrow i have to go at 9something on tuesday, 8 something on wednesday and stay for about an hour and a half each day and then i'm done with school til next monday.
love.
I didnt go to school today.
Alright.
So here we go, the first full-length [sorta] entry since before christmas.
Christmas Break was sweet.
Lot of time at Kings, Eat 'n Park, the mall, and random houses.
I decided i cannot drive OR park in the least.
It happens.
For Christmas i got a few shirts, my Johnny Cupcakes scarf =), some Chanel sunglasses, that don't fit my face, buncha cookbooks, a blow torch, brass knuckles belt buckel, the magic bullet, a new memory stick for my camera, this sweet purse made of handcuffs, and victoria's secret just had their semi-annual sale, so about a zillion pairs of undies. oh, and lipgloss and such.
Enough words.
Reese's Modeling Show!
Cody!
One day, my camera and Kiel's camera will get married, til then, it's just friends with benefits
Moi
At Kings
Me and Pat M
Ty C and the best sandwich ever
Me and Shane
Joe!
Happy HxC Shane!
Emo Shane
Manly Men pushing vans
Me and Beffernator
Ais!
Cody!
Anthy!
Beffy
Beffy and Anthy
Reese showin off his new snakebite
I suck at cooking cookies.
It's love.
Monsoon and Johnnie
Ankle lock
Stevie and the Hunnie Wagon
iPod Nano. Oh yeah. Sweet Christmas.
Dork.
Huggy and me
Me and Ais
Me and Beff
Joey
I look like legos.
Reese and me
Pooooor Matt
Anth and Me
He's on Atkins.
WalMart Powow
Me and Ais
I love these kids.
Shane's Modeling Session.
BELLY BUTTON!
Acacia!
Cody!
Cody and Serg
Fagface!
Serg!
Pat in Drag
Yeah. It's been pretty fun.
And i Neeeeed a haircut.
Who's all goin to the show at Rooney's this weekend?
Love<3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CODY LEE!
List 7 songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.
1. Showbread - If you like me check yes, if you don't i'll die
2. Neon Blonde - Chandeliers and vines
3. The Faint - Worked up so sexual [Death Cab Remix]
4. Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse of the heart [Nikki French Remix]
5. Interpol - C'mere
6. He is Legend - I am Hollywood
7. The Number 12 Looks Like You - Like a cat
I tag:
1. LuReis
2. Hannah
3. Cody
4. Steve
5. Steph
6. Joe
7. Beth
Alright, so updating time is now.
Christmas break has been pretty sweet, i must say.
I seem to be somewhat mallxcore lately. The mall sucks, but you'll have that.
Basically, just a lot of chillin with the homies. No complaints there what so ever.
I think i am having a party sometime soon. I need to have a pary sometime soon. With lots of people. I'm thinking new years eve, but i don't know who all has plans or can come. What day should i have it that most of you can come?
Tonight some people are chillin here while my parents are having their christmas shindig. It should be pretty tight.
I've been getting back into BrandNew alot lately. BrandNew, FBMF, and Horse the Band.
Tonight needs to get here already.
IMPORTANT
Hey!
New Screen Name because i am an idiot and can't remember my password because i had it saved and haven't typed it for so long, that i completely erased it from my memory.
OnlyPollocksMiss
Add me please and message me, cause i lost my buddylist.
thanks =)
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"Those beats are fresh...snap!"
So. Livejournal.
This past week has just been hellacious.
Saturday was Steuben.
Ais, me, and Courtney
Nikki and me
Dance off
Matt, Albert, and Billiam
Me, Ais, Anth
Beff, Huggy, me
Steve, Matt, and Bill
Izzy, me, and Beff
Me and Matt
Shiretta and Joe
Me and Jessie
Me and Izzy
Me and Huggy
Being Emo
Me and Derrick
Corey and me, but apparently i'm having arm spasms
Cody and Izzy
Brittany and Me
Albert and Beff
Adam and me
Steve and me
Bryce and Brittany
Robert and Beff
me and Cody
me and Damien
Brandi and me
Pat and me
Kait and Anth
Alex and me
We take the best VF users pics
Kait and Frankie
Josh and me
pretty
taking pics at Beth's house
I had a great time, until i got sick, even after that happened i had a great time.
Spent the night at Beth's, woke up the next morning and spent the day with Joe and went to the traditional Civic Choral Society show.
Monday.
Wonderful day. Up til about 4pm.
Joe basically told Cassie Harless he would like to have sex with her, in more detail than that. [And i know, because the conversation is logged on the computer at work because the word "whore" was used and it triggers a firewall to log suspicious activity.]
I don't mean to "broadcast" our business, but i feel that for a relationship to last the majority of two years, and just end is odd, so i feel justified in posting the reason for Joe and i to not be together.
Tueday at school was alright.
LA, mothafucka
Anthony and i have the same hair color, purely by accident. It's tight.
That night Beth, Bretton and i went to the mall and looking at Christmas lights.
Joe and i attempted to be friends. We're still trying at that.
Wednesday was sweet.
The Dillinger/HORSE the Band/BTBAM/Flashbulb show was probably the best i've ever seen.
Went up with Joe, Steve, Tim, Reese, Cody, and Huggy.
It was fantastic.
Today.
I didn't go to school.
I'm not sick, i just feel so broken and i can't stop crying for one reason or the other.
I found out today my grampa has been having small heart-attacks for the past few months and he's going into surgery next tuesday.
He's elected for this to be his last surgery and if it doesn't make things better. We'll probably loose him.
This saturday I promised him i'd go to this Hungarian Christmas dance with him, and my guess is, it'll be the last one.
...i was going to post this all yesterday around 4, but i got distracted and so now that we have no school today [Friday] i'm posting this sheet up now.
LOVE.
I am Hollywood
God only knows why on earth i passed my driver test.
I have got to be the worst driver ever.
Saturday night, Ais, Anth, Reese, Huggy, Alex and i all went up to Small's for At All Cost, He is Legend, and From First to Last.
We drove seperate.
Lost Huggy and Alex.
I got us lost for nearly 3 hours.
BUT
We made it to Smalls and the show was grand.
Me and Ais
Me and Derek
Ais and Matt
Me and Matt
Us + Travis
We saw Shane and Jordan and made plans for Eat 'n Park after the show.
Met up there with them and Ian and Matt and some other people and it was supa fly.
Came back here and Ais and Anth stayed the night.
Woke up Sunday morning to my parents watching home movies and i've been addicted to watching them ever since.
I swear until 3rd grade i was nothing more than a spaz who liked Disney.
Monday through Wenesday was school.
Thursday i left after the pep ralley at 10.30 and got my nails done.
Joe and i drove up to Dave's Music and got some more tickets for the Dillinger/HORSE the band/BTBM/the Bronx show next wednesday.
It is going to rock.
Today wasn't much of anything.
I worked the Washington Parade from 4 til 9ish
Came home, watched some TLC with Joe.
Now i'm up here listening to Dillinger gettin pumped, yo.
Photoshop is fun
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